Clinic continues

Although Im a new mom I keep urging myself to forge forward with finishing clinic. I feel like it's necessary for my own personal maintenance of what brings me joy... Im an A type personality.
at the same time maybe it's a perfect time to take a break. 300 hours seems like an eternity with the little one who's growing exponentially daily.
This is been a tough decision for me because as I said being involved in what I was doing before helps restore normalcy and I'm SO close to finishing.

This year is pretty bad flu season so even though it's only three or four weeks in I've now got a cold and my little one has a cough. There's a first time for everything. We are skeptical of vaccines and we are also aware of the criticism that we might receive if people know that we are sick. Grandparents included. I'm generally pretty confident addressing my own health concerns, however making the call for an infant is a challenging one for first time moms whether or not they are in the medical field.
I took him in to see if there's anything we could do but as with most things it just takes time we've got to wait it out.
So as much as it brings me joy to finish up my program and solidify my career right now seems a time to take a step back. And this decision saddens me to no end. Timing is everything right? At this moment I've yet to withdraw. I know it's not best to make decisions when stressed.
So for now, people with the multitude of concerns including fibromyalgia and degenerative changes, arthritis colds and flu's, & fertility problems will have to wait while I heal myself. And most importantly cherish these moments that won't last forever.

Motherbaby

Having a child is surely the most beautifully irrational act that two people in love can commit.-bill Cosby


When asked, "where's twiggy?"
Brian looks over at the pup.
When asked, "where's papa?"
Brian looks over at his dad and smiles.
When asked "where's mama?"
Brian just looks.
This for me feels like success.
If there is anything I set as a goal for myself as a new mom, it was to create a bond with the little loving being and to have a safe and thriving place for him to call his own.
we are still connected.
he's got a solid sense of home and mama. No notion of separation. I thought initially this bond was minimizing over the weeks considered the fourth trimester.
I cherish this time and observation like no other.